So If you enjoy diary entry blogs then you may enjoy mine! In the past I have somehow associated makeup with having a put together day, it made me feel empowered and confident to be out and about in public. Since then, I had my baby twins (now nearly one!) and that changed everything and changed how I thought of the world. I started going out without makeup on and my hair chucked up, originally this was probably due to sleep deprivation and lack of time but it became so much more than that. I realised that I had nothing to prove and no one to try and impress. I just answer to myself and the babies and they really don’t care what I look like! I am happy being a little bit invisible sometimes, in my own makeup free bubble, walking into town owning my flaws. Don’t get me wrong I do slap on a bit of makeup here and there but I don’t want it to define whether I am ‘put together’ or ‘happier’ that day and it took having babies to teach me that makeup does not have super powers and that I am the same person with or without makeup!
Diary Entry #2: Two Posts In One Day
I feel the need to explain myself because on my last post I just wrote, I didn’t over analyse, I just wrote and it felt great but now I have the realisation that I haven’t really explained anything or elaborated on who I am, what this is all about and why I am doing it. So, long story short… I am FJ, I am 30 something (I say ‘something’ not because I am embarrassed about my ever increasing age but because I can’t remember if I am 32 or 33!). I am female, have a hubster and baby twins. I don’t really know what all this is about or what it might turn into or why I am really doing it. I just felt like it. Currently it is ramblings, almost diary like. If you are one for grammar and spelling and writing perfectly as much as I try, I am not great at that so these posts really aren’t for you. Or maybe they are and you will get a kick out of correcting me!
Diary Entry #1: Why I Write
Here I am, sitting in my Livingroom in my 1970s home, watching a Netflix film about teenagers (of which I am most definitely not) and figuring out how to use this wordpress app. I had an urge to write. I have always written, I say always…I didn’t come out the womb writing! But not far off. I kept countless diaries as a child and teenager (oh those angsty teenage diaries!!). Now I am 30 something and still write. I recently started a notebook where I can write songs, this amazing idea came to me when I had 5 minutes to myself in the shower and decided that I had most certainly had thought of the next big hit whilst I was lathering myself up with foam burst shower cream. I wrote a page and the rest sits empty (for now…). When I had a bit of a breakdown (yep, heavy one) I decided to write a novel, it was about a man, a writer, a drunk and something about murder. Needless to say I didn’t finish the book and I lost interest. So why do I write? Because I have an urge, its therapeutic and I want to just vent in some way or another. So here I am, writing again and maybe this time short snippets of ramblings is the way forward rather than committing to a novel or a music album!
Diary of a mad women 