Tag: motherhood

Diary Entry #5 Mother’s Day

My Mother’s days so far haven’t been should I say the most relaxed! My first Mother’s day was the day after giving birth to the babies, I was in hospital, knackered and not really with it but also I was a bit euphoric at the same so that was okay. My second Mother’s day is right in the midst of all this corona virus stuff and social isolation, not quite how I had envisioned my Mother’s days to be.

Sitting in my dining room drinking a posh coffee and nibbling on my Green & Blacks mini choccy bars that were of course a Mother’s day gift from the twinnies with the sun streaming in from the garden, despite everything that is going on, I feel a sense of peace today. Not just because the babies are currently napping and the hubster has gone for a bike ride in the countryside (away from other humans) but because I am a Mama, I am loved by two little humans and I love them back. Not everyone gets a chance to be a Mum so I feel grateful, I am grateful to be spending time as a family unit (she says sitting on her own drinking coffee!) But really, we are off for a walk in a wood later and I can’t help feeling that whatever happens, as long as I have my little family, we will make the most of the situations we are in. The sun shining in has clearly made me feel dead positive. I should sit in the sun more often.

Diary Entry #4 Corona Virus

It is difficult to write a journal without doing an entry on this subject. My mind and my thoughts are consumed with corona virus worries. It feels so real but then so much like a movie at the same time. The very real stark realities of my husband potentially losing his job in the not so distant future, the realities of deaths around the world and the overwhelming responsibility I feel for my family as well as those key workers who are working themselves to the bone to try and keep up with their roles to help everyone else. But then it feels so surreal, is this really happening? And the fact that it is so wide spread and the panic is not just a couple of eccentrics that have bunkers at the bottom of their gardens, it is nearly everyone as they face the reality check that there is no food on the shelves. Walking down the aisles of Morrisons a couple of days ago, it felt like a post apocalyptic scene but no, it is just ours and so many others reality, not a movie, our reality. It is hard not to be eaten up by the news of the knock on effect of this virus, the amount of people and businesses effected in so many ways. It makes my head hurt. I want to stay informed so I will continue to watch the death stats go up and the shocking bullet ins but what I will do is cling to the fact that this reality won’t be forever. I hope.